As I was driving into Dallas early this afternoon, a very quick thought popped into my head. It was one of those random idea bursts that happen throughout your day, but more often than not are forgotten if not jotted down.
I don't usually make notes of my idea process, but for some reason today, after these words burned a lasting impression into my head, I knew I had to write them down. At the next traffic signal, I pulled out my phone and started typing a few words into my notepad. I don't know what they all pertain to, but the final sentence I wrote down started to really dig deep inside me today.
That's a pretty big statement and one that I'm fully aware is much easier to say than to actually do. I can see my fears. I have nightmares about them and many of my fears are byproducts of my failures. To hear, for just that one second a phrase that otherwise had no bearing on my day at the time perplexed me. I think it's in these moments that if I'm opening myself up to being present and listening, that it's preparation for an oncoming storm.
Surely enough, no more than 30 minutes later and I started to face something that was 100% one of my greatest fears. One that has kept me up at night for countless nights. The storm had come and I actually heard God's early warning system.
It's so easy when we face difficult situations to want to abandon ship. The onslaught of waves crashing over the bow of our ship called "Life" at times seems too strong and too fast. We can't possibly take on this much floodwater, can we? The answer, of course, is no. On our own, absolutely not. That fear of drowning in my own failure is a very real thing, but today, as I listened and wrote this down, I started to realize what it meant.
No, I can't see what is going to happen tomorrow or the next day. But if I hold fast to my faith, regardless of where this ship comes ashore, my fear of sinking will be lifted by a faith much stronger than the storms that inevitably come. The more I keep my ears tuned to the frequency that God's voice is speaking to me (through prayer, reading and discussion) the more equipped I am to act out my faith on a daily basis. #UntilWeMeetAgainProject Day 42.
I shot this of Izzy and her horse Minuit in Dallas, TX today. I had an idea for what I wanted to shoot and in no coincidence whatsoever, not only did the original idea manifest, but something much better (visually) came about. Beyond that, the conversation that I had with Izzy and her mother Jennifer was both insightful and more affirmation that God is doing some really wonderful things and that I am only a vessel in His service. When I was so grateful for their assistance with this photo project, I left feeling like I'd somehow blessed them, which can only be attributed to the wonderful way that God puts people in the right places at the right time. I'm learning to not question "Why?" anymore and instead, just respond with "Anything you need God".