One of the hardest things that I struggle with is faith. Not just in the spiritual sense, although I have always struggled with that, but also in day to day things. For so much of my turbulent life, I've gone through extremes. One high comes before a crushing low. It's hard to envision that things are going to be ok when you're in the middle of a hole so deep that you can't even see the light from up above. Faith would tell me that things are going to be alright in the end, but I have genuinely fought depression that doesn't allow me to see past the moment of darkness that I've found myself in.
Even harder then, is taking a leap of faith, and especially when things are comfortable. Like, why would you want to rock a boat when the ship is sailing smoothly? Why risk turbulent waters if you don't have to? Taking that leap of faith into things unseen is scary and downright against what our human instincts tell us to do. I had a semi-successful business a few years ago and as much as I didn't want to let it go, I had to. In hindsight, it was the best move I could have made. Ultimately, it freed me from a lot of things, and it opened the door for me to move within a year, to where I find myself now. A new career came from that, one that a few years ago I wouldn't have even envisioned. I was scared to death to stop doing hair. I was scared of the financial uncertainty, of letting go a legion of clients that had been loyal to me, but in the end, I had to. And I had to realize that I wasn't going to please everyone in my decision and that was ok. At the end of the day, I had to have faith and I had to know that God was going to take care of me, as He always had, even when I was doing things that were completely unworthy of that kind of grace and protection.
When you find yourself in darkness, as I've been so accustomed to in my 34 years, you've got to chase the light. Even if it's only a glimmer and even more, if you can't see it at all. It's natural to be scared, but what I've come to realize is that fear is the greatest tool that the enemy has to wield against us. Fear holds us back. Fear keeps us from realizing greatness. Fear halts our happiness and steals our joy. Faith, in and of itself is letting go of fear and believing that good things are on their way. Even if we can't quite see it. Faith vs. Fear. Light vs. Darkness. #UntilWeMeetAgainProject Day 75.
I wrote this post, inspired by the leap of faith that this man, Mr. Darin Lorton took this year, as he uprooted his family and moved to a new area, to help lead a new church. His business, his family and his life all went with him. That, is the ultimate leap of faith and one to be admired. Thanks Darin.