I struggle a lot when it comes to feeling like what I do visually is any good. Yesterday was one of those days that every single artist has, where they're down and then they kick themselves continually. I was doing it. I took these photos, inspired by album art from a musician that I'd discovered earlier in the day. The clouds weren't responding by showing me the sky behind them. The rain was hampering my ability to shoot outside. After my initial attempts at trying to create something interesting were falling flat, I got in the car and drove away from my original location. It wasn't long before I noticed something I'd never seen before. A cross, outside the nearby Catholic Church, lit up in a way that only would make it more obvious at night. Nothing else had been working up 'til that point, so I figured why not try and make use of the scene as well as the light that was emitting from the cross. I think what gets me defeated more that anything, is that I start shooting something right away that I ALWAYS try and shoot. After doing this for a few frames, I killed the idea. Reset. Start again. Take a different angle. It was after this that I finally felt like SOMETHING was being created. We shot a few more frames and then I took him home, heading back up the hill myself after dropping him off.
Files got imported to the computer and I still wasn't feeling the images. It's not that they weren't good, I just was having one of those days. I edited, uploaded, analyzed, and then I went to bed. Of course though, I wasn't satisfied, so I couldn't sleep. I pulled up the photo that I liked the most and gave it another look. What I wanted wasn't there. I was going for something that I couldn't create this evening, due to natures lack of cooperation. My box is pretty set. What I shoot, is what I edit. I don't use much for tricks. But this photo needed something else and I needed to leave the friendly confines of my box in order to make this work. So, I dug up an old photo, showing a treelined horizon and a blank sky. From there, I added a few tweaks in my editing process mirroring a sci-fi scene that I envisioned for this photo. Everything that I'd done up until this point, from the idea of this photo, to the editing of the image were inspired by this album I'd mentioned earlier.
When music is so good, that it inspires every step you take in a day, as well as moves you to create something beyond your initial attempted interpretation, I'm grateful. Today, that music was the post-rock ambience of Lights and Motion. I discovered their debut album on YouTube and it conjured up moments in your life that you expect to see as you look back on everything that was ever wonderful about it. To put it simply and without care for the overuse of this word, the music and the emotion evoked from it, was epic. And just like that, I needed to create. Again, thanks to my buddy Jake for being so kind in allowing me to just hang out and create whatever kind of art is in my head at the moment.
#UntilWeMeetAgainProjecy Day 12. Shot on my Nikon D800 with Sigma Art 50mm 1.4 at aperture f/2. A few of the outtake images are below and the initial image that I was inspired by as well.